I wish I had a nickel for every man I've met who would not date a transgender girl.

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I called my fiancé at work, and of course my mother before posting to all my friends on Facebook.

But amid the cheering and good wishes, it still felt like everyone was more excited than I was. Over a month later, with one week left to go, I still can’t sort it out.

For the next 15 years I was married and divorced twice.

The root of the failures I believe some bent up anger and feeling of inadequacy stemming from a childhood I had no control over.

The list is a succession in which the prospect of disappointment drove me to stop counting. What I do not comprehend is the prevalence of men in my life otherwise.

Each tale of romance had its own ending, except that the heart of the matter always remained the same: being transgender made me different from other women in the eyes of men. I am very close with my brother and my father; and a number, if not most, of my friends are male -- as are nearly all of my mentors in the legal profession, which is my vocation.

But I also know the feeling I had upon asking one of my best friends for decades whether he would consider a relationship with someone who's transgender.

When I saw the look in his eyes, I added, "Don't answer that question." What staggers the heart is that a prejudice of this magnitude is so prevalent, and that, not only is it accepted as inherent, it is overlooked as a prejudice altogether.

I came out as a transgender man in 2014 at the age of 19.

I knew I wanted “T” and top surgery from the start.

When my surgeon’s office called and left a message telling me the insurance approved my surgery, I couldn’t dial back fast enough.